On Living Life and Being

I used to have a long list of the things that I want to:

BE,
learn,
do,
continue,
and finish.

But then I realized it’s impossible to accomplish everything. Not in this lifetime anyway. I used to want a lot. I wanted a full and happening life, thinking that it was what I needed to give my life a sense of purpose. I wanted to be this and that. I wanted to do this and that. I wanted to be here and there at the same time. I wanted to be out there, fully maximizing everything I’ve got. My dreams (or so I thought) were all over the place. I didn’t know where to start. I then discovered I wasn’t superwoman pala.

Sometimes we get too consumed with being conquerors of the world that we forget the real meaning of our whole being, with our being here. Now. We are hell bent on living the perfect life that eventually, our priorities and values get distorted. We pursue, do, and want the wrong things for the wrong reasons without even noticing it. We want to have and do more, even when we already have more than enough. It seems like we’re not easily satisfied anymore. Kulang na lang we overthrow the One up there.

I do still have my list with me and yes, it’s still getting longer. But I’m not too worried anymore if I don’t accomplish everything in it. I’m taking it slow because I want to savor and take in life as much as I can. I’ve discovered that you don’t have to do much to actually see and feel the beauty of life. It’s the small little things that make life beautiful and special in itself. As Tom Cruise would say in Vanilla Sky, “It’s the small things, there’s nothing bigger.”