Leaps of Faith

It’s hard to decide when you’re faced with a lot of options. I’m starting to think that maybe having a lot of choices isn’t such a good idea after all. While the opportunities may be endless, things can become a tad complicated. The narrowing down and selection process is tough. It becomes harder and harder to pick. Honestly I really don’t know what I exactly want. It seems like I’m never completely satisfied. Today I want this and tomorrow, it’s a different thing. And I’m scared that one day it will all be too late and I won’t have anything to choose from anymore. But I’m much more scared to make the wrong mistake and not be able to get out of it. It’s not that I have difficulty in committing to a certain thing or person. I can commit if I want to. It really has to do more with the available options being not that concrete and 100% foolproof. I’m not completely sold on it…just yet. I know risks should be taken. As much as I hate to leave my comfort zone, maybe it’s exactly what I need to do now. I’ve always backed out every single time. It’s high time I just take the leap, big leaps to the unknown and hope (*cross fingers*) that everything will work out fine. It's now or never. Ang dali sabihin diba? Hehe

Break the Rule and the Ruler

It can be suffocating at times to be in a culture governed by all these rules and norms. The do’s and don’ts seem to be never ending. I’ve lost track of it already. I don’t even know anymore what’s the proper and un-proper thing to do. People can be very critical. You do something that’s out of the norm and “unexpected”, you instantly get questioned about it and get talked about it even.

I have nothing against rules and norms. It only becomes a problem for me when people take it too seriously and expect you to follow suit too. When people start dictating and imposing it on you, THAT’S when it becomes a problem for me. We’re all programmed differently. As such we all have our own different set of rules and beliefs to live by. What I think is right or proper may not be for another, and yes, while what I think may not necessarily be the right one, it’s still MY rules. It may not work well for you, but hey it works for me. We ought to respect one another for that. We shouldn’t act all knowing and be all judgmental just because someone is not like us. Reality check, you are different. I am different. WE ARE ALL DIFFERENT. I’ve used the word different so many times in this paragraph alone, I think you get my point already. Hehe

Honestly I couldn’t careless anymore. I will bend the rules if I want to. My words and actions may not please everyone, and I sure as hell can’t please everyone. It's not my job to make everyone happy. If I will have to worry about what every single people will think and say about me then I would probably go crazy. What I say and do may or may not be according to the “rules”, but as long as I’m not stepping on anybody’s pretty toes, then I think there shouldn’t be any problem to it at all.

The Week That Was

The past week turned out to be a good one for me. My sister and I attended a 3 day convention at Subic. I thought it was going to be the usual boring stuff but it ended up more than what I initially expected. I don't know if it has something to do with the activities they had prepared, but the whole thing somehow reaffirmed how much I like my job. I'm happy where I am now and with what I am doing now. The best highlight though would have to be meeting Will. Babaw ba? Hehe. I've always been a big fan of his in PBB. Oo na jologs na kung jologs. Hehe. I actually can't believe I would be standing right next to him and have my picture taken with him. At long last!! Haha Of course it sucks to know I'm one of the hundreds of girls going gaga over him. Boohoo.

I also got to spend some time with my bestfriends in HK. To quote the guy I met at the convention, "UBE!". Read: the Ultimate Bonding Experience. Sounds baduy ba? :) We've been planning it for so long, it was already long overdue. This year it finally pushed through. Krizia and I stayed over at Jane's. We got a glimpse of Jane's fast paced and busy HK life. As Krizia would put it, it's so fast you can't even cross the street. You're not even halfway through the street and the pedestrian light starts to blink already. You have to keep up with the locals' pace. They walk super fast. The trip was a fun experience. Nothing beats a good vacation coupled with good company as well. I hope we can make it a yearly thing. Thailand next year, girls?