Addicted to Grey's

Another quotable quote from one of the lead,


Dr. Meredith Gray:
"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true..."


*PAUSE*


Me: True. I couldn't agree more. To some extent, I'm sure each one of us still has that glass slipper (for guys, glass shoes?? Baduy ata.) somewhere along our midst, holding on to that hope that someone would eventually take us away, sweep us off our feet, and bring us to the castle where you both will live happily ever after.


*CONTINUATION*
"...At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that it's happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away."


Me: Hmnn I don't know about that. Faith hasn't been funny lately. No one has taken my breath away yet. And I still want that damn castle. And it's extremely important for me to have a happy ever after in the end. I want my own fairy tale. So I'm not sure about that. You may think I'm crazy to even think of this possibility at 23. So I'm just going to put the blame on children book writers for making me too optimistic.

The Flow

I'm currently reading Bridget Jones Diary. Never underestimate chick lit books. There was a part in the book which I found particularly useful. Hell I could very well apply it to my life. The main character was saying how, when you look at life Zen could be applied to absolutely anything. She said it was all a question of Flow rather than struggle. It may be an unacceptable proposition for people like me who always prefers having everything calculated and planned way ahead of time. I get anxious and distressed when things are not running smoothly. There' always this nagging feeling of not wanting to miss out on anything. When things are not working out or when I have a problem, I spend 90% of the time obsessing and worrying about it. And as experience would tell, obsessing and worrying how to fix things pronto doesn't offer any good answer or solution at all.


Perhaps Bridget Jones is right. Maybe we should just leave things as it is, be careless and nonchalant, and just go with the Flow. Instead of being angry, stressed, and resistant to anything that's flawed, I just need to relax and feel my way into it. There are just some things that can't be fixed no matter what you do. Some things happen beyond our control. At the end of the day, you just have to believe and have faith that everything would all eventually work out... that in due time all of the pieces will fit into the big puzzle.