Current State

As much as I want to be in the moment, as much as I want to be on the top of things, and as much as I want to fully immerse myself in the things that I do, it's not possible. There are just too many things to do and too many dependencies as well. The OC in me is screaming for order. I'm tempted to do everything on my own. But I've realized it's no good. When people say 'No man is an island.' I better damn believe in it.


I don't like explaining things or justifying something that doesn't need one to begin with, meaning: it really neither has anything to do with what I'm doing nor does it concern me the most. I don't enjoy (who does anyway?) cleaning up after other people's mess...and asses for that matter. It can be very frustrating. I'm not trying to imply something (am I? Hehe). It's just that I don't want to see myself getting stuck in a similar situation not in the near future anyway.