If Tomorrow Never Comes

From Dr. Meredith Gray, Gray's Anatomy:

A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. "Never leave that 'til tomorrow, he said, which you can do today." This is the man who discovered electricity. You'd think more of us would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off. But if I had to guess, I'd say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of rejection. Sometimes the fear is just of making a decision because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo?

The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we haven't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to sieze the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering. That waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable error beats the hell out of never trying.

Of Burgers and Fries

The past two weeks I've been learning how to cook and serve food. There is so much stuff to remember. My mind is filled with cooking temperatures, cooking time, ingredients, procedures, visual characteristics, and what have you. I didn't know everything should be this precise. I'm not even sure if I'd be able to remember everything. My reflexes and coordination skills have been put to test as well. I think I'm now faster than Speedy Gonzalez when it comes to preparing food that is.


I'm enjoying though. It's been a fun learning experience.


I swear the Quarter Pounder has got to be the best ever smelling burger. And I'm saying this without any bias at all. Hehe If I may also add, the hotcakes has also got to be the best ever smelling hotcakes there is. Promise.

I'm hungry.

My Own Countdown

In two days, I'll be leaving SMART for good. Time flies...ang bilis. While I will surely going to miss a lot of things, I am now more than ready to go. I'm trying to condition my mind to move forward and not look back anymore. I don't want to have any regrets. No doubt my brief one year (and plus months) stint at SMART will always hold good memories for me. But likewise I am also excited, more so psyched with what the future has in store for me. Good luck to me. *cross fingers*


Side Note
Watching the country's current events nowadays is like watching The Buzz. Politics here is proving to be a real entertainment. Kulang na lang yung popcorn. There are just too many happenings, too many hearsay and speculations, add to the fact that the media is hyping up everything. They seem to sensationalize every little thing. I don't know which side I'm in anymore. I'm praying hard that all these brouhahas will soon stop. Our country does not need any of this crap.

The Post with No Title

Maybe it's not them. It's me. If I keep eluding it, I'm afraid I will never be given a shot at it again. I hope not. Maybe I'm just too idealistic for my own good. I should accept disappointing as it may be, that perfect will never be perfect. The right one will never be the right one.


But imperfect and wrong as it can be, I still don't know if I could share my space with someone else. I enjoy my freedom too much to give a part of it away. Believe me I would love to take a shot at it, but not now. Not with the wrong person anyway. I still want to wait and see. I want to be sure. But they say life is about taking risks and chances. So what does that make me? A coward? Maybe...

V-Day na kasi bukas...

I hope I don't sound bitter by pasting this bit by Cindy Chupack, because I'm not. :)


The Rant


The holiday makes more people unhappy than happy; it puts too much pressure on relationships by making romance mandatory, so even if you like doing something sweet and surprising for your loved one, it can't be surprising because it's expected.


Why can't we just pick our own Valentine's Day?


Think of Valentine's Day like Kwanza - a holiday we should all acknowledge, but one that only some people in this country celebrate.

I saw the sign...

I went to the dentist this morning for my long overdue cleaning (after 2 long years as per my dentist). It's a good thing everything is still intact. No pasta or sealant needed. My dentist was really impressed with my brushing skills. Wala raw sira. Hehe


Anyways an odd thing happened. Towards the end of the cleaning, he began to talk about love relationships in general. Odd for me because we never really conversed much except for teeth-related topics...And today out of the blue he was telling me that we can't be picky in love, that sometimes you got to try to know the person first before closing one's doors. He also told me how most guys have this pride issue preferring that they know first if they had a chance or not. He went on and said that he was actually telling his 40 year old sister-in-law that she should have made a move, because he knew of some people who were old and still single because they let the chance pass them by. Sabi niya maybe I should be more open so that I wouldn't have any regrets in the future. It's so weird. For some reason, he was giving advices. Imagine that, my dentist giving me helpful advices and if I may say, friendly warnings. How apt and timing can that be?

Next Scene Please...

The scenery is going to change soon. I'm not sure what to expect from it. I'm hoping it would turn out to be better than expected. Being in my comfort zone has always given me a sense of reassurance. I feel secure and at ease when I'm in my environment; the environment that I perfectly know so well even with eyes closed. But things are bound to change whether I like it or not. Disruptions are meant to be made, positive ones that is. Cliche as it may sound, change is inevitable. But change whether good or bad is still a good thing because that's where I learn and grow from life.

Ignore the discouragers and critics; just follow your heart, you'll be criticized anyway.

I like Tere's ym status message. Bottom line is, don't listen to negative people. Listen to yourself and follow your heart.


Hear! Hear!

Rainbow

On my way to work this morning, I saw a rainbow. The view at Guadalupe bridge was spectacular. The colors were really standing out and the arc was a complete one. The sky was clear. The colors were of very deep shades. The arc was as wide as the entire bridge itself. Imagine that. It was a perfect rainbow, the best one I' ve seen so far.


I've always been fascinated with rainbows. I don't know why but it has this "positive-ness" and calming effect to it. That's why whenever I would have to ask for a sign from God, I'd usually ask for a rainbow. I'm trying to remember what exactly I asked for this time. Hehe


I was telling my officemates about it. Irene told me I should have made a wish. Didn't know there was a thing about making wishes whenever you see rainbows. Sayang, I should have made a wish kanina! Baka magkatotoo pa...

Everything Good List

My Good Things List:

-Getting back to playing golf again and being able to hit the balls consistently.
-Having a golf buddy, and buddies.
-Suman at Tiendisita's - the Original, Ube, and Chocolate top my list.
-Seeing someone you like unexpectedly.
-Getting my bonuses plus other freebies at work (Woohoo!).
-iPod mini - listening to feel good songs.
-Royce's praline truffles and Cacao chocolates - the best!
-A pleasantly surprising ym message.
-Finding inspiration in the smallest things.
-Getting a nice compliment even when you're feeling lousy.
-Establishing a good rapport with everybody.
-Singing your heart out in the bathroom.
-Getting that butterflies-in-the-stomach feeling and having absolutely no idea why.
-Being uncannily positive the whole day.
-Getting my nails and toes done - nothing beats having clean nails and toes!
-Smelling good.
-Getting off early from work.
-Reaching home before 7pm.
-Ticking things off the to-do work list.
-www.getbusiness.biz
-Clark Kent, Susan, Bree, Lynette, and Gabrielle - not to mention I'm also hooked with The OC.
-The holiday season...

Artsy Fartsy Pop Art

Here's my feeble attempt to create a digitalized Andy Warhol pop art of myself. Thanks to Photoshop.

Happy Birthday Amma!

It's my Amma's (translation: grandma, lola) 90th birthday today. I think giving her a tribute is just proper.


My Amma Adams is very special to me. I sometimes call her Amma Adams to differentiate her from my other Amma whom I call Amma Columbia. Adams and Columbia by the way are street names of where they live. I used to call Amma Columbia, Amma Kabignayan. Hehe In case you don't know, Kabignayan is in QC.


Amma is a superb cook. Her fresh lumpia, adobo, spare ribs, and miki are my top favorites. It is through her that I've learned to love avocado with milk and thin sliced saba topped with sugar. I miss her cooking terribly. I wished she was strong enough to teach us her secret recipes.


Most of my childhood memories come from my Amma's house. I remembered staying there often. We would always sleep at her room. We would eat breakfast together. We played while she would sew or take her afternoon siesta. Sometimes we'd also tag along with her to Unimart, Ongpin, or to the piggery. I remembered when I was sick with german measles, I stayed at my Amma for two weeks. She took care of me just so my sisters wouldn't get sick.


I will also always remember my Amma and her Chinese drama betamax tapes. This was her afternoon pastime. I would watch along with her sometimes even if I didn't understand a word. She would also have an assortment of biscuits and cookies at her side. And every time it was time to go, we would shout from below, 'Be ki lo Amma!' ('Bye! We're going Amma.') and she would always reply from the window, 'Cha ko lai!' ('Come back again.')


Amma isn't as strong and coherent as she used to be. I'm not sure if she still remembers me. It's difficult seeing her weak and all. She has always been there for us. I just wish I could do something, perhaps make her feel a litter more comfortable and better. I want to be there for her and somehow return back the favor in my own little way.

I love you Amma. I will always be here for you no matter what.