Seriously Addicted

The hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. Often, too often things that start out as just a normal part of your life at some point cross the line to obsessive, compulsive, out of control. It’s the high we’re chasing, the high that makes everything else fade away. We get addicted for a reason. The thing about addiction is that it never ends well because eventually whatever it is that was getting us high stops feeling good and it starts to hurt. Still they say you don’t kick the habit until you hit rock bottom. But how do you know when you’re there? Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes letting it go hurts even worse.

-From Grey's Season 3

To see is to believe.

Sometimes you can’t take things at face value. Yes doesn’t always means yes.
One may say a thing and do a completely different thing. Just like in those advertisements, it’s so easy to make promises but it doesn’t necessarily guarantee results. It may be tempting to believe in the good intentions of a certain person but sometimes you have to take it with a grain of salt (or lots of salt at that.). The cynic in me tells me that just like rules are meant to be broken, promises too should not be taken seriously. People always love to talk all the time. But where’s the walk? Nada. Nil. As they say all bark no bite. That’s why maybe it’s better to doubt and question every little thing then start trusting immediately.

Friends say I’m naïve, too kind for my own good. I believe and trust easily. But that’s because I have always believe in the good of every person. When people have something bad to say, expect me to say something that is the exact opposite. When people say or do something, I’ll always believe it to be true without any doubt at all. But I’m slowly learning not to take every action and every word seriously. I may not question one's intentions but I ain't going to believe it as well, not that quick anyway. I'm going to be smarter from now on. Play smart right? As long as there isn’t any concrete proof, it won't mean anything to me. I’ll just dismiss it as nothing. Simple and easy.

My P100.00 Price Tag

I attended a 5 day management class last week. One of the activities was about conflict management. The task was to create our own blank price tag. The instructor asked us to place a value from P0 to P100 on our price tag based on how much we think we are worth. I wanted to have a blank price tag because I can’t seem to put an exact amount. I just felt P100 or any figure for that matter would not suffice. I finally wrote down P100 since it’s the allowable maximum amount. I was actually surprised to find out that only a few had P100 price tags. Most of my classmates valued themselves at P74, P60, P95, and etc. One explained she still had a lot of things to improve on, while one said she still hasn’t found that thing that would complete her, and so on. Personally I feel that no matter how incomplete or inadequate we feel, we are all worth more than we are. Nothing can ever quantify or qualify our being us.

The instructor then went on to explain that the main intent of the activity was to show us that we are all worth something and when put in a difficult situation, we should always remember our price tags. No one can make us feel worthless or inferior without our consent. We should always hold on to our price tags. We should never underestimate our worth. In most cases, we always tend to back out and give up in times of conflict. We tend to devalue ourselves and sacrifice our own principles for the sake of peace, agreement, or friendship. It shouldn't have to be this way. We should never compromise our beliefs especially when we know we’re on the right side. You can never go wrong when you’re on the good side of the law right? One should neither take things sitting down especially when one’s values are at stake nor should one hesitate to defend the values of the others if need be. If you’re worth something, if your beliefs and principles are worth something, then you got to fight for it. Nobody can ever take that away from you.